i had a revelation

hi pat khim reina el and kiah

my first blog entry! sorry last time never really put in much effort.
i will be getting baptised on 25th may at east coast beach. you are all cordially invited. (got food and bbq.)
i didnt really have any strong urge to get baptised but this time round i felt that god has done so much in my life and this is the least i could do. and my cell ladies kept asking me so partly i just wanted to get on with it so that i wouldnt have to come up with any excuse anymore. so it was more like a ok just do it lor...kind of decision.
but little did i know that this small step of very small faith changed something big inside me.
i went for the baptism class on sat and was falling asleep la coz the topics were q dry until suddenly during the second half that everything seemed to make so much sense. i think it was only then did i fully understand wat jesus was about. it felt like it made perfect sense. how the tabernacle was built in the past (the steps the olden day people had to take to go in and how it is reflected in the way we do praise and worship today and the curtain that separated us and god was torn in 2 when jesus died)
then suddenly i just felt a revelation> something changed inside me. a kind of joy and realisation that all the things that were important to me were so trivial in comparison to god's plan for us.
i suddenly bumped into alot of old friends who either spiritually refreshed me or people i had not seen for years and i wanted to share the joy of being god's children w them.
and on sunday our pastor was talking about how we need to remain in jesus. he mentioned something about how it is actually considered immature (in terms of spirituality) to keep worrying about things after we have prayed and trusted god to take care of them. he didnt touch alot on this point but it really stuck in my mind. i was always worried even after i prayed. not knowing that by doing that it simply meant i didnt trust completely that He could help me do EVERYTHING.
alot of other things were 'revelationalised ' - of achievements in my life. i used to think that one's achievements (even how much salary u earn at ur age) were measures of how much u have achieved. but as i read the bible yesterday it dawned upon me that it really dosent matter at all how much money we have or how hard we strive to do things to achieve a sort of recognition for ourselves. it all aint gonna matter if we truly believe in eternity. if we focus on the bigger picture of wat path god has planned for us, other things are secondary and thus we can actually do those things better bcoz we dont hold on them so tightly anymore.
and alot of other things that suddenly click in my mind...too many to list

anyway wat im saying is that god will bless us beyond wat we can imagine when we obey him. ( in my case even when i did not do it full heartedly in the beginning)
hope this revelation will be a blessing to ur day today, we all belong to this big god who can give us a peace that transcends all human understanding and is just waiting to pour abundant blessings on u.

j