Philippians 3:19-21

Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things. But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.

Dearest Jesus,

How are you? Haven't heard from you in a while, hope you have been well.

I've been thinking a lot about you, lately. I remember how whenever you were faced with challenges, you always somewhat manage to not only take up the challenge, but go the extra mile to turn it into something extraordinary. I tried to have the same attitude as you did in my own day-to-day, and believe that God will provide for me as long as I have a personal relationship with Him. But most of the time, my eyes desire possessions and I end up becoming a slave to earthly things like money, instead. I may understand that appearances can be deceptive and what looks like real gold may just be a couple of worthless chocolate coins. Yet, I find myself chasing these gold coins anyway. How I wish I had your faith, your wisdom and your attitude towards managing my own finances. At least you won't waste your time chasing after what might turn out to be just chocolate coins when God Almighty is able to give you real solid gold.

Not to mention, I have been putting pleasures before God and I still do not see myself as being any different from a non-believer, the way I crave for material possessions and status. Here's the situation: I know for a fact that you made it possible for me to get up close and personal with God and by the power of God's grace, I am saved and all wealth and goodness shall be provided for me, according to God's plan. By theory, I know I need not worry. But, in practice, I cower in fear of not having enough money or losing that job opportunity much more than believing that God will sort me out and make sure that everything I need will be provided for.

Although I have been showing up in church, I can't help wondering if I come with the right attitude, or am I merely jumping on the bandwagon for hope that perhaps my life will improve if I showed face in church week after week.

So here's my solution. Instead of living my life in strife and envy, I have decided to leave it in your hands. Tell me, Jesus, what do You want? Where do You want me to be? I want to succeed in whatever you want me to do. I will go the extra mile and do more than I'm required to do, when ever I am faced with challenges, because You will provide everything I need.

Jesus, I love you very much and look forward to hearing from you. Let's meet up soon! Keep well.

Lots and lots of love,
P